Song - call me by your name

I caught it bad just today
You hit me with a call to your place
Ain't been out in a while anyway
Was hopin' I could catch you throwin' smiles in my face

Romantic talkin'? You don't even have to try
You're cute enough to fuck with me tonight
Lookin' at the table, all I see is weed and white
Baby, you livin' the life, but nigga, you ain't livin' right

Cocaine and drinkin' with your friends
You live in the dark, boy, I cannot pretend
I'm not phased, only here to sin
If Eve ain't in your garden, you know that you can

Call me when you want, call me when you need
Call me in the morning, I'll be on the way
Call me when you want, call me when you need
Call me out by your name, I'll be on the way like

Mmm, mmm, mmm
Mmm, mmm, mmm
Ayy, ayy

I wanna sell what you're buyin'
I wanna feel on your ass in Hawaii
I want that jet lag from fuckin' and flyin'
Shoot a child in your mouth while I'm ridin'

Oh, oh, oh, why me?
A sign of the times every time that I speak
A dime and a nine, it was mine every week
What a time, an incline, God was shinin' on me

Now I can't leave
And now I'm actin' hella elite
Never want the niggas that's in my league
I wanna fuck the ones I envy, I envy

Cocaine and drinkin' with your friends
You live in the dark, boy, I cannot pretend
I'm not phased, only here to sin
If Eve ain't in your garden, you know that you can

Call me when you want, call me when you need
Call me in the morning, I'll be on the way
Call me when you want, call me when you need
Call me out by your name, I'll be on the way like

Oh, call me by your name (mmm, mmm, mmm)
Tell me you love me in private
Call me by your name (mmm, mmm, mmm)
I do not care if you lyin'

"I caught it bad" is referring to how quickly and badly he fell in love with his secret partner. Lil Nas X has not seen anyone (romantically) for a long time - probably because of COVID-19.

"White" stands for cocaine. Lil Nas X does not support the hedonistic, stoned, partying lifestyle many successfull people have.

This individual leads a "dark" lifestlyle.
It to be that Lil Na X' secret partner is in a relationship with a woman. In Christianity, homosexuality is traditionally believed to be a sin, because God created Adam and Eve as a heterosexual couple.
Lil Nas X suggests to "commit adultery" (another sin) when his girlfriend isn't at home.

"Call Me By Your Name" (2007) by André Aciman is a romantic novel about two male lovers in a secret love affair. The story was famously adapted for the screen in 2017.
Lil Nas X finally embraces himself (as well as his sexuality and origins) by mentioning his own first name "Montero", which he wants his lover to go by as an act of intimacy.
"Montero" is also the name of a fictional land, similar to the garden of Eden, where the corresponding music video is set.

Lil Nas X becomes desperate. If his partner wants to have a certain thing, Lil Nas X wants to give that to him (or even become it).
The description of homosexual intercourse is still widely taboo - "shoot a child in your mouth while i'm riding" portrays gay sexuality in the same way that straight intimacy is often depicted in pop culture.

The track "Old Town Road" was on top of the charts for 19 weeks. Lil Nas X' fame makes him proud and changes his behaviour.
His openly gay identitiy is seen by some as a sign of "the world falling apart".

Lil Nas X may be referring to a straight man who he is lusting after - someone out of his (gay) league.
The seven deadly sins include lust and envy - Lil Nas X is lusting after a man with better qualities than him.

Their affair stays a secret but Lil Nas X is willing to keep it this way.

Call Me By Your Name

Montero (Call Me By Your Name) - Lil Nas X